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Tryin'
04:03
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Well I got these irrational fears
And they don’t make sense, but there staying here
And I’m tryin
Yeah I’m tryin
God I’m tryin, to understand ‘em
Why don’t they just go away
Please leave me alone
I’ve reasoned through their nonsense
But it hasn’t seemed to stop this mess
And I hate ‘em
Ya, I hate ‘em
I don’t understand them
Or where they came from
Why don’t they just go away
Please leave me alone
What’s the point of hating them
When they’re just a part of who I am
And I’m learning to love who I am
Ya, I’m learning to love all that I am
Wait, don’t go away
I need you to show me the way to my soul
So now I’m learning to hold them close
Cuz their my flags to tell me where to go
And I’m learning, learning to love ‘em
Ya, I’m learnin’ learning to love ‘em
So stay, stay a little while
I’ll need you to learn to fly
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Yawning Heart
03:21
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I am rollin’ like a tumbleweed
Blowin’ along with the warm desert breeze
I’m the rain that’s falling from the sky
I’m the leaves collecting my drops
Where I crack, the flowers bloom
And like the vines, I’m overgrowing the streets
I can see, I can see, that I’m a part of everything
When I cry, I can feel ancient times
As if my wells are more than my life
From the chaos, I was born like a star
Dancing the rhythm of the waves on the shore
I already know everything there’s to know
Now I’m trusting from the depths of my soul
I can feel, I can feel the chambers of my heart opening
I can feel , I can feel, I can feel, I can feel
My heart yawning
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Fix You
04:36
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I want you in my life
Contrary to what you may believe
I can barely see the road
But if we meet half way, maybe this will work
You’re hurting, you’re hurting, but so am I
You’re hurting, you’re hurting, but it’s alright
Cuz it’s time that I take care of me
For if I don’t, who will
But I can’t save you, no, I can’t save you, no I can’t you, save you, save you, save you
Or anyone else
I wish I could hold the child in you that never was held
Standing with arms outstretched, waiting and waiting, but no one came
You’re hurting, you’re hurting, but it’s okay
The darkest hour comes before the dawn
And it’s time that we learn to hold ourselves
So that someday someone else can
But I can’t fix you, no, I can’t fix you, no I can’t fix you (x3) fix you (x3)
Or anyone else (x2)
Except myself
Besides, we’re not broken, we’re always whole
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Shark Tamer
03:28
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I never understood the word heartbroken until then
From the bottom of the sea, I watched as a whirlpool spun around me
I know there are sharks in the water
So I’ll be a tamer and ride through the darkness of my seas
And the only thing I could do was to empty and surrender control
And yes, there are sharks in the water
So I am a tamer and I’m riding through the darkness of my seas
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Monogamy
03:50
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Isn’t it silly? This idea of monogamy.
I got enough love to spread all around me
And no it’s not jealousy, it’s my insecurity
But it’s so hard when I think it reflects me
I know the road before us is scary
But won’t you join me, we can go where our hearts beat
To a place I know exists
Where we can be in touch with our needs
So if I like you, I’m gonna tell you
And no, don’t worry, your answer won’t bother me
I’m already whole, you’ll never complete me
I won’t lose myself in your identity
I want more honesty with feelings and wanting
So let’s create that space
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Fill Up Your Soul
04:29
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This is for my friends who hold my hand when I can’t hold my own
This is to soothe your pain when I can’t take it away
I wish I could hold you close enough to calm your soul
Let this be a light, so you can see when you peer inside
This is to tell you that you’re enough and you’ve always been
And thank you for the love you show when you live from your soul
I hope this song puts to rest those voices that do you harm
Don’t be scared of the pain, let the flood come take you away
When your heart has cracks so wide, plant seeds inside
And when the current sweeps you away, just hold onto these chords
Let us break free from the water and rest on the shore
And when we’re stronger, let us grasp hands to damn this unconscious river
This is my way of giving back and giving thanks
So thank you sun, thank you moon, thank you loved ones
This is to remind that you’re never ever alone
There’s an abundance of love around, now fill up your soul
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